Wednesday, December 27, 2006

you can learn from everyone...

You can learn from everyone, good or bad...
To you it's all good so it's a good idea to take advantage of it.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

5AM in Puna...

I got off the plane and stepped into the glorious wonderland of Hilo at the last fleeting moments of Christmas day. It was a magical experience... Finally back at the place I call home, happy about the things I have done while I was gone and ready to take on and create new things while I am here... I don't have much to say now but I am sure a lot will be flowing out soon... I think I have a splinter in my left hand and it's making me angry. I need to get back on a normal sleeping schedual in order to suck in all the glorious hawaiian day light. I think sleeping on the beach will be the optimal thing to do, it's now time to take a shower and get some shut eye. Good night and good morning.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Strange...

We are all tied together in an untangle-able knot.......... . . . . ..... ... . . . . . ... . . . . . ...

So I think I might have multiple personalities... strange...

My day starts, and you never know which one wakes up.
Then do my routine, take a shower, or maybe brush my teeth.
TheN I go throughout my day, being this or that.
anndd. doing this and that.....
then the night closes in....
the battle of the day closes closer to my concience....
and wondering who this person is now...
pondering do I need something to wash the day away????
its a battle in the depths, searching for a sign... clarity...
deciding i know it can't be found......
i decide to close my eyes and think about who might wake up tomorrow......
as i am now, or as someone or something else................................................

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Creativity, Sanity, and George Orwell

For the last 2 weeks I feel I have lost a sense of reality. My brain has been diving into the world of "WE ARE THE STRANGE" and when it comes out of it I've been having a hard time figuring out whats what. To settle my brain down I read one of my favourite essays from George Orwell, "WHY I WRITE." I think one of the reasons that I have been going crazy is that I haven't been setting enough time aside to read and take in new things, every waking moment feels like it needs to be spent doing something productive and thats beginning to become harmful to my mental state... Anyways, I felt I should just put some quotes up here, more for myself, but for anyone who reads this as well.......

When I sit down to write a book, I do not say to myself, " I am going to produce a work of art." I write it because there is some lie that I want to expose........

I have not written a novel for seven years, but I hope to write another fairly soon. It is bound to be a failure, every book is a failure......

Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness.

Yeah, I know these aren't the most uplifting things to read but for someone who is constantly trying to create, it is good to know that someone you look up to has gone through the same shit... I got a lot more sound to do and only a handful of days until I am back on the islands! I can't friggen wait!

Push the Envolope, Watch it bend... - TOOL

Monday, December 11, 2006

Being...

Being technical is the ability to break things down to there smallest part.
Being creative is to figuare as much of these things as possible and using them together to make something new.
Being wise. Well, I don't feel I have any wisdom, but I am thinking that comes with experience.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Particle Of Light.

Particle of Light.
Born at the core of a star.
Born, millions of miles away.
You push through the dense matter surround.
You push foward to reach an unknown goal.
Three hundred thousand years you journey to the surface.
From the moment you reach the end of your loved star,
You spend the final 7 seconds of your existence,
shooting through the vacume of space.
To transfer your engery to a single water molecule on the planet earth,
and bounce it into the atmosphere.

I love you, thanks for showing me life.

Monday, December 04, 2006

A new week, a new goal.

Well it's your humble narrator here again. Just stopping in to take not of my own mental state and the inspiration I have to write. Well, I guess at the moment there really isn't much inspiration to write but I am feeling good. I decided last night that I won't be putting hurtful substances into my body until Jan. 1. So when it hits midnight I am gone go to town. I know that is the wrong approach, but we'll see how I feel when I get there. The Agenda:
Finish mixing Explore.
Finish creating song for J.
Finish mixing song for Janet.
Finish Sound Design for WATS...

22 Days...

It's gonna be a tear. Poor bastard.